Homesick Blues, a New EP, and Other Thoughts.

It is raining. I was reading that even different weather can be hard to adjust to, after moving to a new location. I have been pretty homesick lately.

I think it's really sinking in that all of our friends and family are not just a quick jaunt away. I can't call my sis and go for a morning walk with her, the dogs, and my nephew. I can't plan a coffee date with Jess, we can't meet the VB's at Dadeo's, pop over to A&R's, no more whirlwind trips to mom and dad's in Camrose, or weekend coffee and talk fests with Myra. No more Urban Bridge sunday mornings. I could cry!

I knew this homesickness would come, it's just taken a while. At first it was all "setting up the new place, getting to know the city, waiting for TJ to get here", and then it was all "enjoy the city with TJ". We also got to enjoy a visit from Rachael and Andrew a week ago.

But now real life is beginning. (Except that we get a visit from Jess and Josh this week!!)

I think the stresses of a new job and of starting my classes have emphasized things. I find myself interacting with a lot of new people - both on my job and in my class. It seems like it would be comforting to be around new people, but instead it feels taxing, and takes a lot of energy to get to know everyone and put myself out there again, when all I want is the familiar, all I want is to be around the people I love already. It makes me realize I took you all for granted.

My first counselling course is already getting deeply personal, and the assignments are forcing me to look at myself, and to get really firm in who I am. I am feeling inwardly really good about who I am, about my professional skills, too. But at the same time, I am dropped in a bunch of new environments, and feel very unrecognized. I don't feel like I am outwardly shining at all. (Plus, I got a bad haircut...time to remedy that, right?) I realize I am still very shy at first, and I don't seem to be presenting myself as the person I really am. Shucks!!

So all of the above being said, I've got to "get back".......to my music, to art. And back to a spiritual community (we may have found one last night), and spiritual discipline again.

As a way of making myself finalize a few parts, I wanted to say that, sometime in the next few weeks, I will be sharing an ep of songs that I recorded in Edmonton this summer. They are a very different style than I used to do, and I will have a new "artist name", too!

Okay, thanks for reading if you got this far!